dosomethingtogether

 

I sat in a conference this weekend in Nashville and for 2 days soaked in some of the most challenging and exciting teaching of my entire life. An overall theme I took away from the conference was “Love in Action”. I have struggled most of my adult life trying to find my “calling”. I can’t tell you how many times I have prayed to God and asked Him to tell me what it is He wants me to do, to be, where He wants me to go. I sit and reflect now and realize I have worked in 10 different professions in the last 20 years. Talk about confused. Please allow me to be completely transparent. This is a page from my journal on an extremely dark and trying day of mine. And mind you, this is after 20 years of praying for my “calling”.

6/3/13 – No Day Wasted – I heard this phrase on the radio on Day 1 of our Skid Row mission trip. I felt as though I was to write it down and then God and I would hash it out together. I’ve wasted a lot of days. A lot! I think things are going well and life is pleasant and I look back over day 1, 2, 3, 5, 7 and realize I have given little to nothing to growing my relationship with God. I feel incredibly ALL OVER the place. I feel beaten, unhealthy, and sad. I am allowing myself at moments to completely shut down and disengage and I have no idea why I would choose any of this for myself. It’s so much easier to be numb I guess, so I stay here. To go through the motions, check off tasks, and move from day to day without much effort. I am so tired of being a failure. Doing my best to be neat and perfect on the outside and staying so broken on the inside. I don’t want people to know the ugly truth about me because I don’t want to face rejection. There are days where I think no one could possibly be as broken as I am. And so here I am stuck, broken, tired, and wasting days. Lord, help me. I need you and have no idea how to get back to you.

So… back to my weekend in Nashville. Prior to going, can you guess what I prayed for? You got it! For clarity in my purpose and to know my “calling”. I got just what I asked for in the most unexpected way.

“What if God is not so much concerned with “what we do” as much as He is concerned with just doing SOMETHING together.”

Huh?

Wait. What?

“What if God is not so much concerned with “what we do” as much as He is concerned with just doing SOMETHING together.”

Is God sitting in great anticipation of the day where we quit asking for our “call” and start living life with Him?  Maybe God says, “Nicole, I made you good at this and that, now let’s see what WE can come up with together.” Maybe our purpose, our “calling” is simply to live a beautiful life by living out scripture.

During the afternoon session of Day 1, I let my need for a “calling” go.

1 Thessalonians 5:11 – “Therefore encourage one another and build each other up,”
Lord, I think I’m pretty good at this. Show me opportunity today to encourage.

1 Timothy 5:12 – “Fight the good fight of faith.”
How fun would it be just to punch evil right in the throat today! Let’s do it God!

Philippians 3:15 – “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.”
Lord, you sure you got this one? Yeah? Oh, thank goodness. I had no idea how I would work this one out. Thank you in advance for what you are about to do.

Colossians 3:18 – “Wives, submit to your husbands as is fitting in the Lord.”
God, how about we tackle that one tomorrow? I’m 99% sure I am right in this current situation with Pat. Can’t I be right today and then work really hard at this one tomorrow? No? Bummer.

Hebrews 10:24 – “Let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works.”
Lord, who can I partner with today to do something amazing for you?

Ephesians 4:11 – “Be completely humble and gentle; be patient bearing with one another in love.”
Lord, did you have to use that word completely? Can’t I just have one moment today where it’s all about me? No? Bummer.

2 Corinthians 10:7 – “Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.”
Lord, what could I give today that would bring me great joy? Show me who needs something…

Romans 12:13 – “Practice hospitality.”
Sweet! That is exactly what you created me to do. When and where Lord? I’m there!

God made us all good at something, gave us passion for community, blessed us with certain resources, and surrounds us with relationships. Today – just today – consider doing something beautiful with Him. What does it look like? I don’t really know, but I have a lot of ideas! And I can’t wait to see what God and I can come up with together.

Nicolesig